Nekenčiu tavęs už paskutinius žodžius kuriuos ištarei.Kartais norisi apkabinti ir ištarti 'myliu tave',kad ir kaip banaliai tai skambėtų,nes kartais mano jausmai tau tik taip nusakomi.Bet šiandien tavęs nekenčiu,todėl kad aš noriu gero,o tu kerti blogu,todėl,kad aš visada kalta ir TIK aš.Nekenčiu už tai,kad per tave pražliumbiau iki dabar nuo pat paskutiniųjų tavo žodžių,už tai,kad mama klausinėja kas man daros ir aš eilinį kartą sakau kad aš bloga,ir aš visus skaudinu,o apie tave visada tik geruoju.Gyvenime niekas man nėra tokių žodžių pasakęs kaip tu.Ir kartais taip keista,kad prieš savaitę viskas buvo idealu,o dabar pasaulis vėl griūva.

Dangus virš Giedrės ir vėl griūva.

Strange,but yesterday I felt so needless.Like nobody cares if I exist.Maybe autumn makes me feel so.It's depressive time,or maybe it's about black moon in Aquarius sign,who will be in my sign about nine months.Maybe me believing in astrological signs is too deep.Maybe all the problems are in me,maybe I am too different,maybe my psychiatrist said truth,that I'd better be alone,because no one understands me,but I don't want to be alone,sometimes it's just like sleeping,sleeping with no waking up.When no one will wake me up,because I feel so forgettable.

"It's all in your head,it's all in your head,they said I need to bleed"

Sometimes, when you get someting material, you feel much more happier, and you think, that being happy is to get something, like today i bought lens for my camera.I felt happy for about few hours, and then I realised, that material happiness has nothing to do with spiritual happiness.Sometimes I think that I'm lucky,because most of my material wishes come true.But it's not exactly what I want in my life.Material things will never fill emptyness in one's heart.The one's,who doesn't feel happy about herself.Who dreams nightmares,in heart,which was turned to stone much time ago.And everytime she tries to help everybody,just to make other happier,because she can't reach her happiness,and much time ago,she was the one,who never helped,she only cared about herself, maybe she had to pay, so someone took her happiness away.

But do you know anyone,who is completely happy?